almost here

A new beginning and a sad sad ending all at the same time. It is almost here. I can feel it within the deep torn and cracked crevasses of my heart. I have had this feeling before, and just pushed it aside. Unfortunately I cannot push this feeling aside, because this is the real deal. It is coming, and you may or may not know when it hits, but I will most certainly know. It will be the day that this feeble heart of mine finally pulls the plug on itself. The pain is too much to bear. What's next?