The title says it all. I do not want things to change so much after this. Do not get me wrong, things will change, but some things must stay the same due to certain circumstances. I do not want this to end badly. I do not want me to end up being mad and feel that I need to move far far away. Mady is my priority and I will cooperate and do whatever I need to for her to be as happy as she can be. I want the girls I love to be happy. If my wife "needs" to leave and find herself, or work out issues she has, or be independent, or do whatever she feels she has to do, then I will not stop her. I do not like to see anyone suffer or have a lack of happiness on my account. Things will be the same, but things will be different. It is very hard for me to explain, so I am sorry if you are confused. I must remember to look to God during this. I hope that I will not just say this now, and do something completely different when it...happens. I hope she finds what she is looking for, and I hope that I can get my priorities straight and get back to walking with God. He understands me so much, why wouldn't I want to walk with Him.
Confusion sucks, but I have to learn to deal with it, and move on. I do not believe this whole....incidence has phased me yet. There have been days at work if I start thinking about what will happen, I literally start crying and have to go hide for a couple minutes and get a hold on myself. I must stay strong, not just for me, but for my little girl. She is my everything.
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