Sunday, July 3, 2011

i have had enough

So she expects me to treat her like a goddess or a queen. I think I do enough when I watch mady while she goes and parties. Or perhaps when I clean up after her all the time. Or maybe I do enough when I give her time to get ready to leave me. Or maybe I do enough when I try and help her get a job, or drive my vehicles. Yeah, I totally don't do anything. I work 2 full-time jobs while in college. I quit college when I am a senior. I get a job I hate so that we can live. No, that isn't enough. So she says I am always an a**hole, when really she overreacts about everything. I am doing homework, she wants me to change a diaper and I say I can't. She doesn't want to do it because she does not want to mess up her precious nails. So then she starts yelling at me saying i have always been an a**hole. I am not going to lie, I am sometimes an a**hole to her now, but I have my reasons. Why in the world would I be so nice and kind to her. We are getting divorced. She used me. She says she never wanted to be with me or be married to me....and she says this three years into marriage....wow. I friggin gave up EVERYTHING so that she could be happy....EVERYTHING. I am sick of her taking advantage of me, I am sick or her not appreciating everything I do, I am sick of her complaining about the SMALLEST THINGS IN THE WORLD. Every time she is mad at something else besides me, she always finds a way to blame it on me. I am just sick of all of this. I cannot wait for her to get out. She said in the past she wants us to stay friends for Mady, but I don't think I can do that. She is a huge *insert bad word here*. I do not want anything to do with her. This may sound stuck up, and I am sorry if it does, but she doesn't deserve me. I deserve someone better than this. I cannot put up with anymore of this. I am sick of being yelled at. I am sick of being treated like crap. I am sick of all this. I am cutting her out, putting all this in the shredder, and burning it. No more. No friggin more.

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